~Last Episode~

"I couldn't stay any longer. I was fighting a battle with fate and as i left the city of angels. As I walked the endless journey home, each night i prayed to God but would he listen to the needs of a sinner. So no matter how much I loved her or how much I needed her, it would not have made a difference. It would not mean anything. We would never be together. We could not exist in the same world. And so this are my memories, the memories of the boy who once laid eyes on forbidden love..."

*Real life update*

well as most of you might know, i've already started working (in shah alam)...don't ask why i picked such a place to work...*hint : they pay good money*...(for now)...moving on..it has already been a month working...changes in my life..apparently i can speak cantonese and mandarin with a slang...i'm known as a walking dictionary and translator...TPK has started working with me...and apparently i'm the office stud (i would be flattered if a girl said it)...my colleagues call me the MD's golden child...the MD is still calling me Mr. Jason...while he calls everyone by their first name...just got my first pay but it's all gone now...thinking of quitting my job...yes QUITTING MY JOB...some people might say it's stupid but somehow i don't feel satisfied...i'm not being challenge in this current job, everything is so boring, so mundane and i really think i can do better...alot of people are asking me to stay on...just to give it a try...maybe it's me..i'm eager to climb up the ladder of success cause currently i'm feeling as though i'm climbing down...i think i need some time to think...hopefully the weekend helps...

*more interesting news*

i fell asleep while waiting for the traffic light to turn green today...

i bought a new phone :-D

i'm still single

~Cursed Nightmares~

"...as the days and weeks went by, I wonder if I still missed her. I did not miss her one bit but yet I still craved for her forbidden love. What was this feeling? This urge. This curse. Those dreams I had, it seemed so surreal, so vivid. It made me crave for her even more. I was losing my mind. I just wanted her all to myself. To chase her would be chasing a life that I will never have. Yet each night I would dream of her in my arms but would wake up screaming as I watched her walk away in the arms of another..."


*real-life update*
went for an interview with a SMALL company recently, got the job, but sadly will be rejecting them. hope i'm making the right choice...oh yea started playing pool again...and started capo training again!!!...sweet...never knew how much i missed capo until i started going to class again...

~Best of Both Worlds~

"she had her own world. i had mine.she wanted the best of both worlds. but all I ever wanted was the best of her world. I was always there. just a whisper away. just a thought away. I never left her side or sight. if only she realized. We came from different lives. We came from different worlds. would the likes of her mingle with the likes of me, a peasant boy. would an angel fall for a simple human boy? I knew she deserved much better..."

p/s : as most of you know i'm currently UNemployed. so i'm pretty much very free to update. i would think that this is the continuation to the first post...however i somehow feel this doesn't have much impact as the last...hmmm...maybe i'm not bored enough..or there aren't any stewardess around to inspire me...

~Perfection~

"as I gazed upon her beauty after what seemed like eternity. I realized her beauty had not change one bit. still angelic. still ethereal. still as lovely as the first day I laid eyes on her. I asked myself. did I still love her? did I still want her? did my heart still yearn for her forbidden love and as the morning rays shone upon the perfect skin on her face. I realized that she was an angel and I wasn't anyway close to her perfection. I was just human, there was nothing I could give her that she already had..."

p/s : was bored as hell on the flight and for some reason these words started running through my head...so i thought i would write it down somewhere... i feel that its kinda nice...care to comment?

~SB Syndrome~

okay updates are due...when to melbourne had lots of fun, went on a shopping spree, sat in a horse carriage, saw chairman mao's skinnier brother, met new friends, got adopted by a family in clayton (best family on bettina street), spent the most awesome time with the most awesome'mest' people in the world...well winter in melbourne is just COLD...at times it was bone chilling/spine hurting cold...but i gotta say i always went out like a was used to the cold just wearing only two thin layer on clothes (must act macho abit mar)...well i proud to admit that the dry air and the cold in winter makes you not want to take a bath...first of all...you'll have to freeze your balls off (if you're a guy) or nipples off (if you are a girl...saying freezing the vajayjay off wouldn't sound appropriate)...spent so much time with my clayton family (zhou, wei lun, sophie, suan and not forgetting brandon, sue ann, kuo hao, jit tee and tiffany and many more) though didn't spend as much time with the others i still had a great time...okay moving on to the title...most of you would be wondering what the hell it means...

well first of all let me start off with how much i love winter...

1. the cold - seriously you don't feel like you're melting under the hot sun
2. no sweat - you don't sweat at all
3. few baths - no sweat hence no need to bathe
4. eat more - warm food always taste nicer in cold weather
5. shopping - winter sales everywhere...OMFG...
6. many more but just can't think of any now cause i feel so fucking sweaty and hot
7. oh ya the thing i hate most bout winter is the cold toilet sits...fucking hell...no matter how sleepy you are you will wake up once you plant your ass on an icy cold toilet sit in the morning

well now that i'm back in m'sia i feel that it its utterly hot and humid and i feel so damn sticky every time...by the way i haven't left my room since last night cause i need the aircon...cause once i get out of my room i experience the SB syndrome...its hot and humid as i mentioned earlier and only one thing can happen when its hot and humid...sweaty balls...yes so i might be staying in until this sweaty balls syndrome is over...

My Clayton Family...(i miss you all)

~for you~

if not for you,
i've would never had made is thus far,
if not for you,
i would have never gotten up each time i fell.

it was you,
who made me chase my dreams,
it was you,
who never gave up on me.

because of you,
i've grown to be the man i am today,
because of you,
i stand tall, proud and strong.

and for you,
i will be the man you once were,
and for you.
i will continue chasing your dream, my dream, our dreams.

this post is dedicated to my hero, my role model, my father, my papa...

hey pa, thanks for bringing me this far, the day you left i thought life would end for us but you never let us feel neglected in any way whatsoever. you've made me the man i am today. you made me this strong. you made us this strong. you will always be loved no matter where you are. you will always be missed no matter how far you are.and you will always be remembered as my hero and my father...Thank you papa...I Love You Pa...till we meet again please keep on looking down on us...i promise to continue living your dream...just watch i'll make you proud...

~Bigger Dreams~

yea so i've finish my exams, fingers crosses it will be the last of the exams i'm taking for now...let's pray now that by the time the results are out i can proudly say i am an engineering graduate...over these 4 year i've met a whole bunch of friends from different walks of life and of of different races, nationality and tribes (machodian, killerdian, daijiodian and etc.) along the way we've gotten closer to some and even closer with others (not in the naughty way ar)...we've had our ups and downs...laughters and unforgettable moments...moments and memories that i will cherish forever...i'm going to miss all of these...i'm going to miss you guys and girls...i'm going to miss you all...let's just hope we'll take the effort to meet up once in awhile (tommy, please don't be so lazy to come hang out with us)...4 years have gone and past so so so fast. it was just like yesterday that i was sitting next to SH1 thinking that my life in uni was doomed...luckily god loved me so so so much, i met all of YOU...i'm sure you know who you are...the list will definitely be too long to name each and everyone of you...and knowing me i will definitely forget one or two names...you all have taught me so much about life...i don't think so that my uni life would be as memorable if my only friend was SH1...this is how i would imagine myself if i didn't meet each and everyone of you guys and girls... "eh eh eh eh eh, i graduate d...eh eh eh eh"....i would really like to thank each and everyone of you from the bottom of my heart for travelling this journey with me...to my family i would never have reach this stage without your support mum, kor and of course you pa (i know you're always looking down on us)...all my uncles, aunties and cousins...my family you have been my strength and my pillar that brought me thus far...i love you all...and lastly but not least..Thank You God...

let the new chapter of my life begin, where i chase bigger more impossible dreams...
with this i end this post...

p/s : Let the PARTIES begin!!!!!!!!!!!!!!