~Stay/Leave~

She wanted to stay. I wanted her to leave. If only she would just come back. Home is where the heart is at, she always said. And her heart was where it belonged. But if she only knew, knew how hard i had fallen, fallen for her. Maybe. Just maybe she wouldn't stay...

*Real-life update*
1. Survived setiawan (traveled back in time when i was there...yes time move so slow that it actually moves backwards...)
2. Life was so slow in setiawan that tortoises' move faster than anyone else...
3. Will have to go back to setiawan again -__-
4. Been having a little TOO much fun...
5. Looking forward to CNY holidays...(fingers crossed company closes for a week)

~Stuck~

Okay, some of you might find it old, some might find it totally random but i think this makes ALOT of sense...well as some already know on my way to work today i saw a cow stuck in a drain...REALLY stuck as in cannot MOVE at all..can move head only cause head popping out k...haha...so it then brings us to the question..why was the cow crossing the road?...*lol*...for greener pastures?as the saying goes the grass is always greener on the other side...but they don't talk bout the shitty journey to the other side huh?...see how the cow got stuck while trying to get to the other side...

well then it got me thinking...was this a sign?a heavenly message?or just a coincidence...here i am going on my way to work going to a job that i having mix emotions about (mostly because i have no work yet)...i keep thinking of other jobs (crossing over to the other side where the grass is greener)...but i'm stuck..(stuck in the drain just like the cow)...i can't make up my mind just yet but i have a choice not like the cow..it didn't have a choice it was stuck..*hahaha stupid cow*...i have a choice whether i want to go and stay...staying doesn't sound so bad if they gave me more to do...at least i could learn more...well leaving could be better, i could find a job i REALLY like *hopefully*...so for now i think i shall give myself a little more time..stay.be patient.be very patient.maybe good things will come soon...if not resign and go find another job lor...hahaha...

p/s : still thinking of the cow...*cow! if you can read this i'm sorry i didn't help and i hope you're safe and sound and unstuck by now!*

~Hope~

Woke up this morning with the weather above me... ;-) so spent a little more time sitting in front of the idiot box before getting ready for work...tuned in to A Knight's Tale..*awesome movie*...but what caught my attention was... this...

It is strange to think, I haven't seen you since a month. I have seen the new moon, but not you. I have seen sunsets and sunrises, but nothing of your beautiful face. The pieces of my broken heart are so small that they could be passed through the eye of a needle. I miss you like the sun misses the flower; like the sun misses the flower in the depths of winter. Instead of beauty to direct its light to, the heart hardens like the frozen world your absence has banished me to. Hope guides me, that is what gets me through the day and the night. The hope that after you're gone from my sight, it will not be the last time that I look upon you.

...beautiful...dare i say it is how i feel now...if only i dared...if only...

*Real life update*
Haven't had thoughts of changing jobs yet this week ;-) *good sign?*
Saw a cow stuck in a drain this morning, really wanted to help, but i didn't...
Still thinking about that cow...could it be a message or a sign?
Feeling sick...can i go home now?

~Beautiful~

i know i should update more...but today...it's just

"You put the beautiful in life"

*Real life update*

i think i belly will never go away... :-(
i forgot how to get to my office i missed the turn off to my office and headed to midvalley...
this week i don't feel like i need to find another job...
maybe next week i will again...

~Addiction~

I was so confident of how I felt but yet so confuse of what I was feeling. Never have I felt so vulnerable. It felt so fragile. As though the slightest wrong move would shatter everything or in this case the wrong words. Lust or Love. Infatuation perhaps? Or could I just be falling again. Falling in Love. I felt as though she was my survival. Each day I eagerly wait for her. Just to get a daily dose of her. I was addicted. And she was my addiction...

*real life update*

I spend too much time on FB and MSN.
I have too much time to THINK at work. Hence, making me thinking of changing jobs again.
Everyone thinks that I'm an idiot or stupid cause i want to change jobs again.
They always say 'FUCK YOU' but they are my closest friends and i appreciate their feedback.
so 'FUCK YOU' too...hehe...

~Drama~

He : hey, i've finally moved on. i don't need you anymore

She : what do you mean? you said you will always love me...

He : i was dumb then, stupid and ignorant. now, i finally can say, i'm happy for you.

She : is it another girl?i miss you baby...you know i will always love you...

He : What bullshit...you left first remember?and by the way you have another already...

She : but it's different...why?!?!?

He : how is it different?you're fucking someone else...i'm not...

She : why are you treating me like this?i hate you!!

He : karma, bitch...it bites back...

She : how could you?you said you will love me forever...

He : you said it too remember...look where that got us

She : but but but...

He : can't you just be happy for me, just like i am happy for you?

She : *silence*

He : it's over...i moved on..i don't need you anymore...

*click*

*real life update*

started swimming.can't feel my legs.
practicing guitar hero on a daily basis.
already looking forward to CNY holidays.
finished watching big bang theory.
needs to start saving.
needs to start planning holidays.
needs better pay?...

~sunshine~

she was like the sun,
she would light up the darkest of my days,
cause her smile shone brighter than she sun,
her touch so warm,
just like the warmth of the sun's rays on a cold winter's day,
her voice would melt my heart,
the thought of her would make me walk on the clouds,
she always made me smile,
oh how i wish i could make her mine,
make her my sunshine...

*real life update*

Change jobs...
Living live a little more happier...
Still wish i wasn't single *lolz, actually i'm totally enjoying the single life*
Wants to start swimming...
My belly has grown double in size since i graduated... :-D
Someone said my bum is round *sexy*...
To everyone Merry Christmas (never too late to wish) and a Happy New Year..