~the idea or thought~

well i've been having mixed emotions about writing this post cause i think it would definitely put me in a vulnerable position but i guess one has to push all the envelopes in life...so here we go...ever been in love?ever loved someone?ever been loved by someone?what the heck does love mean?we're constantly saying those three words for fun, for expressing our feelings or just to get that hot girl in bed...???...correct me if i'm wrong...i'm sure one of you reading this has done it before...so well...when do we really know that we're in love...do we feel it in our head, heart or pants?...which then takes me to my next question...are we in love with that person or just obsessed with the idea or thought of being in love???the latter which means that one needs to be always in a relationship no matter who that other person is...that person would be addicted to being in love but not in love with that other half...if you get my drift...FUCK!! i almost feel this post is talking a stroll on the emo side of me...but moving on...what do people expect out of relationships?happiness?tears?heart to heart talks?sex?.. what makes a relationship so fucking addictive that some of us just keep jumping head first into it...or others just keep yearning for it...aren't there better things in life...?well i can't think of any now actually (personally its because i couldn't live alone or be a loner)...hahaha...which then brings me to my part of MY question...do i still love YOU?...or am i just obsessed with the idea or thought of being in love with YOU?...well i guess we'll have to wait for that chapter to come...we'll know pretty soon i guess...wonder how far i will go...maybe then i will know what i really want...