~Question~

something to ponder on this christmas season...

Would you tell a lie to someone you love?
You love her so much that every time she walks away it kills you inside,
You feel so close to her but nothing can happen,
Which brings the phrase "So close yet so far" to a whole new level,
Would you lie to her and tell her "I Don't Love You Anymore" and regret those tainted words for the rest of your life just so she can live her life and chase her dreams,
Or would you follow your heart and tell her "I Love You, Please Stay This Time"...

Merry Christmas To All and To All a Happy New Year!!!

~direction-less~

is that even a word??
direction-less...yeah been feeling like that for a couple of days...a sudden overwhelming feeling that i'm not so sure what the hell/fuck i want in life...i mean to make things easier for everyone to understand i've always had a goal or vision of what i wanted to do...like tomorrow i want to do 'this'...next week i want to do 'that'...next month i must get 'this' and 'that'...but lately...i've been in a trance like mode...i think...i'll just wake up in the morning and don't have a clue or even the slightest idea of what i want to do with my day...i'll just be like someone on weed stoning the day away...its not that i don't like feeling like this...i just feel disturbed that i'm feeling like this...are this symptoms of depression...i don't feel sad...loneliness??...i'm not a loner...craziness??...maybe, but i doubt it...i feel as though i'm wasting all my energy doing nothing the whole day...there has to be something better for me to do out there...get a job...i already have one...get a social life??...not the greatest but i'm satisfied with my social life...hmmm...get a girl??...*we'll just keep it to myself*...and so it beckons...what do i really want from this point onwards in life???...do i want you???do i really need you???